Now The Rug is Lifted

Aku butuh advice sejujurnya..... (or nah?)

Aku butuh listener sejujurnya mungkin ya, lalu lihat nanti apakah aku butuh advice.

Ini dimulai dari how chill I am knowing the fact that aku masuk usia yang semakin matang (hahaha). Nope, lebih tepatnya aku agak 'panik' knowing that I've always been too 'chill' in managing myself. Lalu di sisi lain banyak orang yang sayang aku, yang lebih concern terhadap how my life will be going. Don't get me wrong, ini bukan sindiran at all dan aku bener-bener tersanjung karena banyak yang peduli sama aku.

Begadang Karena Taylor Swift

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Seingatku, kopi di kafe Zuhs tadi siang ngga strong-strong amat, lebih strong kopi di 105 atau Pungu, tapi here I am, 1:30 AM in the morning and widely awake. Okay, but if there's somebody to blame, let's blame Taylor Swift's latest release 'All Too Well 10-minutes Version'. Yes, she's definitely the craziest queen of all time.... ANYWAYS,

This is What Happens when You Don't Live with Your Dad All Your Life, and You Fell in Love

First it makes you happy,

that tingling feeling inside your tummy,

but strange.

It's just strange that,

somehow, a man believed in you.

Then you believe too,

that he was the puzzle piece,

that fits all of it.

But strangely, it's not.

That deep hollow isn't fulfilled.

The thoughts of being cared,

being protected,

are just comforting.

But deep down you know,

that someday somehow, it won't last.

You love him,

you want to spend the rest of your life,

only with him.

But you are okay too in your solitude.

You love him but, you love yourself more.

26

Hari ini aku ulang tahun, dan aku rasanya masih nggak siap, untuk menyadari bahwa aku lebih dekat ke usia 30 daripada 20. Udah 26 tahun aja cuy... Wkwk inget dulu SMA dengan clueless-nya mikir pengen nikah umur 23. Little did I know 23 tahun aku ngga ada siap-siapnya.

Mau cerita aja soal apa yang ada di pikiranku akhir-akhir ini. Dulu pas masa sekolah, pas masih tinggal sama mamah, tentu everything seems fine and all, and it's the normal state. To be fine is the normal one. And you know what we do to the normal thing? We take that for granted--always. Tempat tinggal selalu ada, makanan tersedia di meja, uang sekolah selalu beres.

Are You Influenced by So-Called Influencers?

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Gue udah lumayan lama ngga nulis (di blog ini, ya, karena hampir tiap hari gue nulis di diary lol), dan sekarang gue mau nulis hal yang lagi mengganggu pikiran. Jadi gue bikin disclaimer dulu bahwa tulisan ini bakal ngga ada rapi-rapinya dan alurnya entah gimana tapi yaudah lah ya?